| Well friends, It has been about a million years since I last even looked at this thing. You could say that my life has been turned upside down in the past two and a half months. Things at University Middle School are going well. There are a lot of kids and there are a lot of problems. A LOT of problems. I am daily challenged and completely drained everyday when I return home to my husband. Sometimes I feel like such a pitiful wife because I am so void of energy. But, I love my job despite all the obstacles abd Steven is so wonderful and supportive. He bought me Halloween and Harvest decorations for my room the other day! Steven and I have been married for a little over two months and things have been great. He is loving seminary and is so cute when he gets home from class and has all his stories and insights to share with me. I must say that I feel like a big dummy sometimes though, because although he is only in his first semester of seminary, much of his knowledge and lingo is far past my comprehension. It makes me joyous to see him so happy though.
And through all the major life changes we have undergone in the past few months, we are doing well. Besides a few arguments and times of annoyance, which can only be expected, the Lord is continuing to grow and bless our union. We have begun house shopping in the Waco area and are looking to buy our first home come about May. We are so ready to have a place of our own and not live in an apartment, even in this short period of time. The Lord continues to bless us and provide, so we are very hopeful for a future purchase. Things have been fairly rough at times as Steven and I have dealt with all the changes recently and there is one thing that marriage has made me aware of in regards to my relationship with Jesus, and that is how truly weak I am. While God is so constant and faithful, I have just been such a stinker in my time of greatest need. It is funny, because it doesn't really seem to matter how strong and diligent you are before marriage or major life changes, the real test of character comes when the challenge is over and you are left in the calm of the storm. That sounds so dumb, but it's so true in my life right now. I have someone around me constantly who sees my true character in my daily walk, my weakest points, my strongest points, puts up with my annoyances, and who has to learn how to minister to me and love me through it all. It is so challenging sometimes... and I have just been so stinky at depending on the Lord during this time. So, I guess what I am learning about being so weak right now is to keep seeking my Jesus even when the big changes have all been changed and I am left with "real life". I still need and hunger for Him. And my husband needs me to hunger and thirst for Him, as well. |
